Always

I'm realizing more than ever the emptiness of life without our Father. Watching people struggle, and the hopelessness of the world. It breaks my heart, and I realize again that even though I don't feel God's presence right now, that doesn't mean He's left me. He is always with me, and I simply can't fathom life without Him. In my mind it seems like staring into a black abyss, spiraling downward for eternity. And I know again I could never jump over the edge. My God is faithful to me, and though circumstances and people may fly out of my control and no longer be there for me, He will ALWAYS be there. That is a promise.

"I've already run for dear life straight into the arms of God. So why would I run away now when you say?"
Psalm 11:1 (The Message)


On a side note, I may soon start posting about other things as well, such as movies and books I like and other interests I have. :)

Musings

So I was thinking back to when I got baptized in November 2011. (I've been a believer since I was 4 but I hadn't been baptized till then) On my notes for why I wanted to be baptized, I likened baptism to a wedding. You already know you love each other and want to be together, but the wedding is the public declaration of your love and commitment to each other. For better or for worse, till death do us part. (Though with God, not even death will part us!) And baptism is the same, a public declaration of your faith, love, and commitment to God.
Anyway, I've been thinking about that lately, and reading articles about marriage and courtship and such (I love courtship stories, I'm very much a romantic at heart). And a lot of them have been talking about how a marriage takes work, after the honeymoon feelings fade and the mushy gushyness goes away, the relationship takes work. This is the stage where you either give up and take the easy way out, or, you stay true to your vows and work at the relationship. Taking the time to rekindle your relationship, spending time together, talking to one another, instead of going by feelings only and letting it slide.
So even though I may not feel God right now, He has promised that He will never leave or forsake me, so I'm not about to give up on my side. I'm going to keep at this relationship, and even if I never feel Him again, though it would hurt terribly, I will follow Him. My love for him is not dependant on feelings. Besides, He loves me much more than I could ever fathom, or love Him, and I know He wants the best for me, even though it may make no sense to my human understanding.
Though I must say, I can't wait till Eternity when I will see Him at last!

And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
Matthew 28:20b

Hope you have a fantastic week!

Waiting

These songs have really been ministering to me lately. I've been feeling far from God lately, and I hate it. I miss the closeness I had before. But I know this is not the end . . .

Countless times in Scripture God says He will never leave or forsake us! (Deut 31:6, Deut 31:8, Joshua 1:5) So just because I can't feel Him doesn't mean He's deserted me. For God is not a man, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good? (Num 23:19)

Though sorrow may last for the night (and loneliness, and anxiety), joy comes in the morning! (Psalm 30:5b)

Then my Beloved will come, leaping across the mountains, bounding over the hills! (Song of Solomon 2:8)

I may be in a season of waiting, but He will come, for He is my Beloved and I am His.

 

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

Song of Songs 2:8
Listen! My beloved! Look! Here he comes, leaping across the mountains, bounding over the hills.

Song of Songs 2:11-12a

See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone. Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come . . .

Waiting in Him!